Moms Sugery & My FVL

First off, mom had surgery yesterday; a skin graph on her belly. She is doing good, in a bit of pain but she is a trooper. It was very emotional for me to be there with my mom as her only in person support. Gosh it was so hard to watch them wheel her away and only it was even harder to see her come back. I was so happy to see her, but i hated to see her like that. I am so glad that it was an out patient surgery and she is home comfortable in her own inviornment. We go back to the dr. on thursday. She has sence been waited on hand and foot (i hope she does not get to spoild to that.. lol)

Phew as for me. I have sure learned so much about myself in these past few months. I finally recieved my answer as to why Jace suddenly passed away while inside me! I have FVL, i had no idea what that was until i went to the Dr. today! Apparently it is very bad for pregnant women because if untreated many things can happen in the pregnancy (such as 2nd and 3rd trimester still birth). Now michael and i are trying to get pregnant and i am scared. I am scared that i will get a blood clot and die. I have two little boys to think about. But after talking to the dr. and listening to our recorded converstation, then talking to my husband, he thinks its a postive thing that we found this out. He says he does not see the negative because i could have gone through another pregnancy not knowing it and something could have happened... at least now we know and it can be treated. I find the following link to be some interesting facts 

http://www.naturalchildbirth.org/natural/resources/prebirth/prebirth35.htm

So since i started my cycle today we will go in tomorrow to my fertility specilist and see if my two cyst have shrunk. Mike is going to come with me to the dr. this time because i of course have a million questions, more worried about my health. But i am sure that i will be fine!!! I found this amazing youtube video that makes me cry because i now realize how special caden and gaige are. Some of the video reminds me of  my experiance with gaige (being so premature) yet all these mothers will not let FVL get them down.... They fight it!!! 

http://youtu.be/gc_lIknSmXs